hememorykeeper’sdaugher

医生戴维亲自为妻子接生，发现双胞胎中的女

婴患有唐氏症。不忍面对女儿为智障的现实，他让

护士将女儿送走，并对妻子诺拉谎称她已经夭折。

善意的欺骗竟成了一家人的梦魇……25年间，诺拉

不能承受丧女之痛，开始出走、酗酒，而戴维终日

被满心愧疚纠缠却无法言说，只能带着一架“记忆

守护者”牌相机去寻找女婴、女孩、少女的影子，

仿佛要为他那不存在的女儿留下成长的记录。暗恋

戴维的护士卡罗琳并没有送走女孩，她搬到另一个

城市隐姓埋名，以一己之力对抗社会的不公，尽力

给女儿一个温暖的家……多年后，戴维和卡罗琳再

次相遇，她对他说：“你逃过了很多心痛，但你也错

过了无数的喜悦。”

[美]金·爱德华兹（kimedwards）

march1964

hesnowsaredofallseveralhoursbeforeherbor

beganafewfkesfirs，inhedullgrayeafernoonsky，and

henwinddrivenswirlsandeddiesaroundheedgesofheir

widefronporchhesoodbyhersideahewindow，waching

sharpgussofsnowbillow，henswirlanddrifoheground

allaroundheneighborhood，lighscameon，andhenaked

branchesofhereesurnedwhie

aferdi

erhebuilafire，venuringouinoheweaher

forwoodhehadpiledagainshegaragehepreviousauumn

heairwasbrighandcoldagainshisface，andhesnowinhe

drivewaywasalreadyhalfwayohiskneeshegaheredlogs，

shakingoffheirsofwhiecapsandcarryingheminsidehe

kindlinginheirongraecaughfireimmediaely，andhesafora

imeonhehearh，crosslegged，addinglogsandwachinghe

fmesleap，blueedgedandhypnoicouside，snowconinued

ofallquielyhroughhedarkness，asbrighandhickassaicin

heconesoflighcasbyhesreelighsbyheimeheroseand

lookedouhewindow，heircarhadbecomeasofwhiehillon

heedgeofhesreealreadyhisfooprinsinhedrivewayhad

filledanddisappeared

hebrushedashesfromhishandsandsaonhesofa

besidehiswife，herfeeproppedonpillows，herswollenankles

crossed，acopyofdrspockbancedonherbellyabsorbed，

shelickedherindexfingerabsenlyeachimesheurnedapage

herhandswereslender，herfingersshorandsurdy，andshe

biherboomliplighly，inenly，asshereadwachingher，he

felasurgeofloveandwonder:hashewashiswife，haheir

baby，dueinjushreeweeks，wouldsoonbebornheirfirs

child，hiswouldbeheyhadbeenmarriedjusayear

shelookedup，smiling，whenheuckedhebnkearound

herlegs“youknow，i’vebeenwonderingwhai’slike，”shesaid

“beforewe’reborn，imeani’soobadwecan’remember”she

openedherrobeandpulleduphesweaersheworeunderneah，

revealingabellyasroundandhardasamelonsheranherhand

acrossissmoohsurface，firelighpyingacrossherskin，

casingreddishgoldonoherhair“doyousupposei’slike

beinginsideagreanern?hebooksayslighpermeaesmy

skin，hahebabycanalreadysee”

“idon’know，”hesaid

sheughed“whyno?”sheasked“you’rehedocor”

“i’mjusanorhopedicsurgeon，”heremindedher“icould

ellyouheossificaionpaernforfealbones，buha’sabou

i”helifedherfoo，bohdelicaeandswolleninsideheligh

bluesock，andbeganomassageigenly:hepowerfularsal

boneofherheel，hemeaarsalsandhephanges，hidden

beneahskinanddenselyyeredmuscleslikeafanabouo

openherbreahingfilledhequieroom，herfoowarmedhis

hands，andheimaginedheperfec，secre，symmeryofbones

inpregnancysheseemedohimbeauifulbufragile，fineblue

veinsfainlyvisiblehroughherpalewhieskin

ihadbeenanexcellenpregnancy，wihoumedical

resricionsevenso，hehadnobeenableomakeloveoher

forseveralmonhshefoundhimselfwaningoproecher

insead，ocarryherupflighsofsairs，owrapherinbnkes，

obringhercupsofcusard“i’mnoaninvalid，”sheproesed

eachime，ughing“i’mnosomefledglingyoudiscoveredon

hewn”sill，shewaspleasedbyhisaenionssomeimes

hewokeandwachedherassheslep:hefluerofhereyelids，

heslowevenmovemenofherches，herouflunghand，small

enoughhahecouldencloseicompleelywihhisown

shewaselevenyearsyoungerhanhewashehadfirs

seenhernomuchmorehanayearago，assherodeupan

escaorinadeparmensoredownown，onegraynovember

saurdaywhilehewasbuyingieshewashiryhreeyearsold

andnewolexingon，kenucky，andshehadrisenouofhe

crowdlikesomekindofvision，herblondhairswepbackinan

eleganchignon，pearlsglimmeringaherhroaandonherears

shewaswearingacoaofdarkgreenwool，andherskinwas

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