作者:查尔斯·兰姆
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-06 20:36
|本章字节:23018字
weareoohasywhenwesedownourancesorsinheglossforfools,forhemonsrousinconsisencies(asheyseemous)involvedinheircreedofwichcrafinhereionsofhisvisibleworldwefindhemohavebeenasraional,andshrewdodeecanhisoricanomaly,asourselvesbuwhenonceheinvisibleworldwassupposedobeopened,andhewlessagencyofbadspirisassumed,whameasuresofprobabiliy,ofdecency,offiness,orproporion——ofhawhichdisinguisheshelikelyfromhepalpableabsurd——couldheyhaveoguideheminherejecionoradmissionofanyparicuresimony?——hamaidenspinedaway,wasinginwardlyasheirwaxenimagesconsumedbeforeafire——hacornwaslodged,andcalemed——hawhirlwindsuporeindiabolicrevelryheoaksofheforesorhaspisandkelesonlydancedafearfuli
ocenvagaryabousomerusicskichenwhe
owindwassirring——wereallequallyprobablewherenowofagencywasundersoodhaheprinceofhepowersofdarkness,passingbyheflowerandpompofheearh,shouldypreposeroussiegeoheweakfanasyofindigeneld——hasneiherlikelihoodnorunlikelihoodàpriorious,whohavenomeasureoguessahispolicy,orsandardoesimaewharaehoseanilesoulsmayfechinhedevilsmarkenor,whenhewickedareexpresslysymbolizedbyagoa,wasiobewonderedasomuch,haheshouldesomeimesinhabody,andasserhismeaphor——haheinercoursewasopenedaallbeweenbohworldswasperhapshemisake——buhaonceassumed,iseenoreasonfordisbelievingoneaesedsoryofhisnauremorehananoheronhescoreofabsurdiyhereisnowojudgeofhewless,orcanonbywhichadreammaybecriicised
ihavesomeimeshoughhaicouldnohaveexisedinhedaysofreceivedwichcraf;haicouldnohaveslepinavilgewhereoneofhoserepuedhagsdwelourancesorswerebolderormoreobuseamidsheuniversalbeliefhahesewrecheswereinleaguewihheauhorofallevil,holdinghellribuaryoheirmuering,nosimplejusiceofhepeaceseemsohavescrupledissuing,orsillyheadboroughserving,awarranuponhem——asifheyshouldsubpoenasaan!——prosperoinhisboa,wihhisbooksandwandabouhim,suffershimselfobeconveyedawayahemercyofhisenemiesoanunknownisndhemighhaveraisedasormorwo,wehink,onhepassagehisacquiescenceisinexacanalogyohenonresisanceofwichesoheconsiuedpowers——whasopshefiendinspenserfromearingguyonopieces——orwhohadmadeiacondiionofhisprey,haguyonmusakeassayofhegloriousbai——wehavenoguesswedonoknowhewsofhacounry
frommychildhoodiwasexremelyinquisiiveabouwichesandwichsoriesmymaid,andmorelegendaryaun,suppliedmewih,goodsorebuishallmenionheaccidenwhichdirecedmycuriosiyoriginallyinohischa
elinmyfahersbookclose,hehisoryofhebible,bysackhouse,occupiedadisinguishedsaionhepicureswihwhichiabounds——oneofheark,inparicur,andanoherofsolomonsemple,delineaedwihallhefideliyofocuradmeasuremen,asifhearishadbeenuponhespo——aracedmychildishaenionherewasapicure,oo,ofhewichraisingupsamuel,whichiwishhaihadneverseenweshalleohahereafersackhouseisinwohugeomes——andherewasapleasureinremovingfoliosofhamagniude,which,wihinfiniesraining,wasasmuchasicouldmanage,fromhesiuaionwhichheyoccupieduponanuppershelfihavenomewihheworkfromhaimeohis,buiremembericonsisedofoldesamensories,orderlysedown,wihheobjecionappendedoeachsory,andhesoluionofheobjecionregurlyackedohaheobjecionwasasummaryofwhaeverdifficulieshadbeenopposedohecredibiliyofhehisory,byheshrewdnessofancienormoderninfideliy,drawnupwihanalmosplimenaryexcessofcandourhesoluionwasbrief,modes,andsaisfacoryhebaneandanidoewerebohbeforeyouodoubssopu,andsoquashed,hereseemedobeanendforeverhedragonisdead,forhefooofheveriesbabeorampleonbu——likeaswasraherfearedhanrealisedfromhasinmonserinspenser——fromhewombofhosecrushederrorsyoungdragoswouldcreep,exceedingheprowessofsoenderasaingeorgeasmyselfovanquishhehabiofexpecingobjecionsoeverypassage,semeuponsaringmoreobjecions,forhegloryoffindingasoluionofmyownforhemibecamesaggeredandperplexed,ascepicinlongcoashepreybiblesorieswhichihadread,orheardreadinchurch,losheirpuriyandsinceriyofimpression,andwereurnedinosomanyhisoricorchronologichesesobedefendedagainswhaeverimpugnersiwasnoodisbelievehem,bu——henexhingoha——iwasobequiesurehasomeoneoroherwouldorhaddisbelievedhemnexomakingachildaninfidel,isheleinghimknowhahereareinfidelsaallcreduliyishemansweakness,buhechildssrengh0,howuglysoundscripuraldoubsfromhemouhofababeandasuckling——ishouldhavelosmyselfinhesemazes,andhavepinedaway,ihink,wihsuchunfisusenanceashesehusksafforded,buforaforunaepieceofillforune,whichabouhisimebefelmeurningoverhepicureofhearkwihoomuchhase,iunhappilymadeabreachinisingeniousfabricdrivingmyinconsideraefingersrighhroughheworgerquadrupedsheelephan,andhecamel——hasare(aswellheymigh)ouofhewoswindowsnexheseerageinhauniquepieceofnavarchiecuresackhousewashenceforhlockedup,andbecameaninerdicedreasurewihhebook,heobjecionsandsoluiongraduallyclearedouofmyhead,andhaveseldomreurnedsinceinanyforceoroubleme——buherewasoneimpressionwhichihadimbibedfromsackhouse,whichnolockorbarcouldshuou,andwhichwasdesinedorymychildishnervesrahermoreseriously——hadeesablepicure!
iwasdreadfullyaliveonervouserrorshenighimesoliude,andhedark,weremyhellhesufferingsienduredinhisnaurewouldjusifyheexpressionineveridmyheadonmypillow,isuppose,fromhefourhohesevenhoreighhyearofmylife——sofarasmemoryservesinhingssolongago——wihouanassurance,whichrealizedisownprophecy,ofseeingsomefrighfulspecrebeoldsackhousehenacquiedinpar,ifisay,haohispicureofhewichraisingupsamuel——(ohaoldmancoveredwihamanle!)iowe——nomymidnigherrors,hehellofmyinfancy——buheshapeandma
erofheirvisiaioniwashewhodressedupformeahaghanighlysaeuponmypillow——asurebedfellow,whenmyaunormymaidwasfarfrommealldaylong,whilehebookwaspermiedme,idreamedwakingoverhisdelineaion,andanigh(ifimayusesoboldanexpression)awokeinosleep,andfoundhevisionrueidursno,eveninhedayligh,onceenerhechamberwhereislep,wihoumyfaceurnedohewindow,averselyfromhebedwheremywichriddenpillowwas——parensdonoknowwhaheydowhenheyleaveenderbabesaloogoosleepinhedarkhefeelingabouforafriendlyarm——hehopingforafamiliarvoice——whenheywakescreaming——andfindnoosoohehem——whaaerribleshakingiisoheirpoornerves!hekeepinghemupillmidnigh,hroughcandlelighandheunwholesomehours,asheyarecalled,——would,iamsaisfied,inamedicalpoinofview,provehebeercauion——hadeesablepicure,asihavesaid,gavehefashionomydreams——ifdreamsheywere——forhesceneofhemwasinvariablyheroominwhichiyhadinevermewihhepicure,hefearswouldhaveeselfpicuredinsomeshapeoroher
headlessbear,bckman,orape——
bu,asiwas,myimaginaionsookhaform——iisnobook,orpicure,orhesoriesoffoolishservans,whichcreaeheseerrorsinchildrenheycanamosbugivehemadireciondearlilenwhoofallchildrenhasbeenbroughupwihhemosscrupulousexclusionofeveryainofsupersiion——whowasneverallowedohearofgoblinorappariion,orscarcelyobeoldofbadmen,ororeadorhearofanydisressingsory——findsallhisworldoffear,fromwhichhehasbeensorigidlyexcludedabexra,inhisown”hickingfancies;”andfromhislilemidnighpillow,hisnursechildofopimismwillsarashapes,unborrowedofradiion,insweasowhichhereveriesofhecelldamnedmurdererareranquilliy
gorgons,andhydras,andchimeras——diresoriesofceenoandheharpiesmayreproducehemselvesinhebrainofsupersiion——buheywereherebeforeheyareranscrips,ypes——hearcheypesareinus,andeernalhowelseshouldherecialofha,whichweknowinawakingsenseobefalse,eoaffecusaall?——or——
names,whosesenseweseeno,
frayuswihhingshabeno?
isihawenaurallyconceiveerrorfromsuchobjecs,consideredinheircapaciyofbeingableoinflicuponusbodilyinjury?——o,leasofall!heseerrorsareofoldersandingheydaebeyondbody——or,wihouhebodyheywouldhavebeenhesameallhecruel,ormening,defineddevilsindane——earing,mangling,choking,sifling,scorchingdemons——areheyonehalfsofearfulohespiriofaman,ashesimpleideaofaspiriunembodiedfollowinghim
likeohaonalonesomeroad
dohwalkinfearanddread,
andhavingonceurndround,walkson,
andurnsnomorehishead;
becauseheknowsafrighfulfiend
dohclosebehindhimread
[foonoe]mr,coleridgesancienmariner
hahekindoffearherereaedofispurelyspiriual——haiissronginproporionasiisobjeclessuponearh——haipredominaesinheperiodofsinlessinfancy——aredifficulies,hesoluionofwhichmighaffordsomeprobableinsighinoouranemundanecondiion,andapeepaleasinoheshadowndofpreexisence
mynighfancieshavelongceasedobeaffliciveiconfessanoccasionalnighmare;buidono,asinearlyyouh,keepasudofhemfiendishfaces,wihheexinguishedaper,willeandlookame;buiknowhemformockeries,evenwhileica
oeludeheirpresence,andifighandgrapplewihhemforhecrediofmyimaginaion,iamalmosashamedosayhowameandprosaicmydreamsaregrownheyareneverromanic,seldomevenruralheyareofarchiecureandofbuildingsciiesabroad,whichihaveneverseen,andhardlyhavehopeoseeihaveraversed,forheseeminglenghofanauralday,rome,amserdam,paris,lisbon——heirchurches,paces,squares,markepces,shops,suburbs,ruins,wihaninexpressiblesenseofdeligh——amaplikedisincnessofrace——andadaylighvividnessofvision,hawasallbubeingawake——ihaveformerlyravelledamonghewesmorendfells——myhighesalps,——buheyareobjecsoomighyforhegraspofmyroamingrecogniion;andihaveagainandagainawokewihineffecualsrugglesofhei
ereye,omakeouashapeinanywaywhaever,ofhelvellynmehoughiwasinhacounry,buhemounainsweregohepoveryofmydreamsmorifiesmehereiscoleridge,ahiswillcanconjureupicydomes,andpleasurehousesforkubkhan,andabyssinianmaids,andsongsofabara,andcaverns,
wherealph,hesacredriver,runs,
osocehisnighsoliudes——whenica
omuserafiddlebarrycornwallhashisrionsandhisnereidsgambolingbeforehimi
ocurnalvisions,andprocimingsonsbornonepune——whenmysrechofimaginaiveaciviycanhardly,inhenighseason,raiseupheghosofafishwifeosemyfailuresinsomewhaamorifyingligh——iwasaferreadinghenobledreamofhispoe,hamyfancyransronguponhesemarinespecra;andhepoorpsicpower,suchasiis,wihinmeseowork,ohumourmyfollyinasorofdreamhaverynighmehoughiwasuponheoceanbillowsasomeseanupials,ridingandmounedhigh,wihhecusomaryrainsoundingheirconchsbeforeme,(imyself,youmaybesure,heleadinggod,)andjollilywewencareeringoverhemain,illjuswhereinoleucoheashouldhavegreeedme(ihinkiwasino)wihawhieembrace,hebillowsgraduallysubsiding,fellfromasearoughnessoaseacalm,andhenceoarivermoion,andhariver(ashappensinhefamiliarizaionofdreams)wasnooherhanhegenlehames,whichndedme,inhewafureofalucidwaveorwo,alone,safeandinglorious,somewhereahefooofmbehpacehedegreeofhesoulscreaivenessinsleepmighfurnishnowhimsicalcrierionofhequanumofpoeicalfaculyresideninhesamesoulwakinganoldgenleman,afriendofmine,andahumoris,usedocarryhisnoionsofar,hawhenhesawanysriplingofhisacquainanceambiiousofbeingapoe,hisfirsquesionwouldbe,——”youngman,whasorofdreamshaveyou?”ihavesomuchfaihinmyoldfriendsheory,hawhenifeelhaidleveinreurninguponme,ipresenlysubsideinomyproperelemenofprose,rememberinghoseeludingnereids,andhainauspiciousinndnding