apreyseverefiofindisposiionwhich,underhenameofanervousfever,hasmadeaprisonerofmeforsomeweekspas,andisbuslowlyleavingme,hasreducedmeoanincapaciyofreflecinguponanyopicforeignoiselfexpecnohealhyconclusionsfrommehismonh,reader;icanofferyouonlysickmensdreams

andrulyhewholesaeofsicknessissuch;forwhaelseisibuamagnificendreamforamanolieabed,anddrawdaylighcurainsabouhim;and,shuingouhesun,oinduceaoaloblivionofallheworkswhicharegoingonunderi?obeeinsensibleoallheoperaionsoflife,excephebeaingsofonefeeblepulse?

ifherebearegalsoliude,iisasickbedhowhepaienlords,ihere!whacapricesheacswihouconroul!howkinglikeheswayshispillowumbling,andossing,andshifing,andlowering,andhumping,andfing,andmouldingi,oheevervaryingrequisiionsofhishrobbingemples

hechangessidesofenerhanapoliiciannowheliesfulllengh,henhalflengh,obliquely,ransversely,headandfeequieacrosshebed;andnoneaccuseshimofergiversaionwihinhefourcurainsheisabsolueheyarehismarecusum

howsicknessenrgeshedimensionsofamansselfohimself!heishisownexclusiveobjecsupremeselfishnessisinculcaeduponhimashisonlyduyishewoablesofhewohimhehasnohingohinkofbuhowogewellwhapassesouofdoors,orwihinhem,sohehearnohejarringofhem,affecshimno

alilewhileagohewasgrealyconcernedinheevenofawsui,whichwasobehemakingorhemarringofhisdearesfriendhewasobeseenrudgingabouuponhismanserrandofifyquarersofheownaonce,jogginghiswiness,refreshinghasoliciorhecausewasoeonyeserdayheisabsoluelyasindifferenohedecision,asifiwereaquesionoberiedapekinperadvenurefromsomewhispering,goingonabouhehouse,noinendedforhishearing,hepicksupenoughomakehimundersand,hahingswencrossgrainedinhecouryeserday,andhisfriendisruinedbuheword”friend,”andheword”ruin,”disurbhimnomorehansomuchjargonheisnoohinkofanyhingbuhowogebeer

whaaworldofforeigncaresaremergedinhaabsorbingconsideraion!

hehaspuonhesrongarmourofsickness,heiswrappedinhecalloushideofsuffering;hekeepshissympahy,likesomecuriousvinage,underrusylockandkey,forhisownuseonly

heliespiyinghimself,honingandmoaningohimself;heyearhoverhimself;hisbowelsareevenmeledwihinhim,ohinkwhahesuffers;heisnoashamedoweepoverhimself

heisforeverploinghowodosomegoodohimself;sudyinglilesraagemsandarificialleviaions

hemakeshemosofhimself;dividinghimself,byanallowableficion,inoasmanydisincindividuals,ashehahsoreandsorrowingmemberssomeimeshemediaes——asofahingaparfromhim——uponhispoorachinghead,andhadullpainwhich,dozingorwaking,yiniallhepasnighlikealog,orpalpablesubsanceofpain,nooheremovedwihouopeningheveryscull,asiseemed,oakeihenceorhepiieshislong,cmmy,aenuaedfingershepassionaeshimselfallover;andhisbedisaverydisciplineofhumaniy,andenderhear

heishisownsympahiser;andinsincivelyfeelshanonecansowellperformhaofficeforhiyhapuncualfaceofheoldnursepleaseshim,haa

ounceshisbrohs,andhiscordialshelikesibecauseiissounmoved,andbecausehecanpourforhhisfeverishejacuionsbeforeiasunreservedlyasohisbedpos

oheworldsbusinessheisdeadheundersandsnowhahecallingsandoccupaionsofmoralsare;onlyhehasaglimmeringconceiofsomesuchhing,whenhedocormakeshisdailycall:andeveninhelinesofhabusyfacehereadsnomulipliciyofpaiens,busolelyconceivesofhimselfashesickmanowhaoheruneasycouchhegoodmanishasening,whenheslipsouofhischamber,foldinguphishindouceursocarefullyforfearofrusling——isnospecuionwhichhecanapresenenerainhehinksonlyofheregurreurnofhesamephenomenonahesamehouromorrow

householdrumoursouchhimnosomefainmurmur,indicaiveoflifegoingonwihinhehouse,sooheshim,whileheknowsnodisinclywhaiisheisnooknowanyhing,noohinkofanyhingservansglidingupordownhedisansaircase,readingasuponvelve,genlykeephisearawake,solongasheroublesnohimselffurherhanwihsomefeebleguessaheirerrandsexacerknowledgewouldbeaburhenohim:hecanjusendurehepressureofconjecureheopenshiseyefainlyahedullsrokeofhemuffledknocker,andclosesiagainwihouasking”whowasi?”heisferedbyageneralnoionhainquiriesaremakingaferhim,buhecaresnooknowhenameofheinquirerinhegeneralsillness,andawfulhushofhehouse,heliesinsae,andfeelshissovereigny

obesickisoenjoymonarchalprerogaivescomparehesilenread,andquieminisry,almosbyheeyeonly,wihwhichheisserved——wihhecarelessdemeanour,heunceremoniousgoingsinandou(sppingofdoors,orleavinghemopen)ofheverysameaendans,whenheisgeingalilebeer——andyouwillconfess,hafromhebedofsickness(hronelemerahercalli)oheelbowchairofconvalescence,isafallfromdigniy,amouningoadeposiion

howconvalescenceshrinksamanbackohisprisinesaure!whereisnowhespace,whichheoccupiedsoely,inhisown,inhefamilyseye?hesceneofhisregaliies,hissickroom,whichwashispresencechamber,whereheyandacedhisdespoicfancies——howisireducedoamonbedroom!herimnessofheverybedhassomehingpeyandunmeaningabouiiismad,everydayhowunlikeohawavy,manyfurrowed,oceanicsurface,whichipresenedsoshoraimesince,whenomakeiwasaservicenoobehoughofaofenerhanhreeorfourdayrevoluions,whenhepaienwaswihpainandgriefobelifedforalilewhileouofi,osubmioheencroachmensofunweleneaness,anddecencieswhichhisshakenframedeprecaed;henobelifedinoiagain,foranoherhreeorfourdaysrespie,oflounderiouofshapeagain,whileeveryfreshfurrowwasahisoricalrecordofsomeshifingposure,someuneasyurning,someseekingforalileease;andheshrunkenskinscarceoldaruersoryhanhecrumpledcoverlid

hushedarehosemyserioussighs——hosegroans——somuchmoreawful,whileweknewnofromwhacavernsofvashiddensufferingheyproceededhelerneanpangsarequenchedheriddleofsicknessissolved;andphiloceesisbeeanordinarypersonage

perhapssomerelicofhesickmansdreamofgreanesssurvivesinhesilllingeringvisiaionsofhemedicaendanbuhowisheoochangedwiheveryhingelse!canhisbehe——hismanofnews——ofcha——ofanecdoe——ofeveryhingbuphysiccanhisbehe,whosoelycamebeweenhepaienandhiscruelenemy,asonsomesolemnembassyfromnaure,erecingherselfinoahighmediaingpary?——pshaw!issomeoldwoman

farewellwihhimallhamadesicknesspompous——hespellhahushedhehousehold——hedesarlikesillness,felhroughouisinmoschambers——hemueaendance——heinquirybylooks——hesillsoferdelicaciesofselfaenion——hesoleandsingleeyeofdisemperalonelyfixeduponiself——worldhoughsexcluded——hemanaworldunohimself——hisownheare——

whaaspeckishedwindledino!

inhisfswampofconvalescence,lefbyheebbofsickness,yefarenoughfromheerrafirmaofesablishedhealh,yournoe,dearedior,reachedme,requesing——anaricleinariculomoris,houghi;buiissomehinghard——andhequibble,wrechedasiwas,relievedmehesummons,unseasonableasiappeared,seemedolinkmeonagainohepeybusinessesoflife,whichihadlossighof;agenlecalloaciviy,howeverriviawholesomeweaningfromhapreposerousdreamofselfabsorpion——hepuffysaeofsickness——inwhichiconfessohaveinsolong,insensibleohemagazinesandmonarchies,ofheworldalike;oisws,andoislieraurehehypochondriacaffusissubsiding;heacres,whichinimaginaionihadspreadover——forhesickmanswellsinhesoleconempionofhissinglesufferings,illhebeesaiyusohimself——arewasingoaspan;andforhegianofselfimporance,whichiwassoely,youhavemeonceagaininmynauralpreensions——heleanandmeagrefigureofyourinsignificanessayis