作者:查尔斯·兰姆
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-06 20:36
|本章字节:17538字
idonoknowapleasuremoreaffecinghanorangeawilloverhedeseredaparmensofsomefineoldfamilymansionheracesofexincgrandeuradmiofabeerpassionhanenvy:andconempionsonhegreaandgood,whomwefancyinsuccessionohavebeenisinhabians,weaveforusillusions,inpaiblewihhebusleofmodernoccupancy,andvaniiesoffoolishpresenarisocracyhesamedifferenceoffeeling,ihink,aendsusbeweeneneringanempyandacrowdedchurchinheeriischancebusomepresenhumanfraily——anacofinaeniononheparofsomeofheaudiory——oraraiofaffecaion,orworse,vaingloryonhaofhepreacher——pususbyourbeshoughs,disharmonisinghepceandheoccasionbuwouldshouknowhebeauyofholiness?——goaloneonsomeweekday,borrowinghekeysofgoodmasersexon,raversehecooislesofsomecounrychurch:hinkofhepieyhahaskneeledhere——hecongregaions,oldandyoung,hahavefoundconsoionhere——hemeekpasor——hedocileparishionerwihnodisurbingemoions,nocrossconflicingparisons,drinkinheranquilliyofhepce,illhouhyselfbeeasfixedandmoionlessashemarbleeffigieshakneendweeparoundhee
journeyingnorhwardely,icouldnoresisgoingsomefewmilesouofmyroadolookuponheremainsofanoldgreahousewihwhichihadbeenimpressedinhiswayininfancyiwasapprisedhaheownerofihadelypulledidown:sillihadavaguenoionhaicouldnoallhaveperished,hasomuchsolidiywihmagnificencecouldnohavebeencrushedalonceinohemeredusandrubbishwhichifoundi
heworkofruinhadproceededwihaswifhandindeed,andhedemoliionofafewweekshadreducedio——ananiquiy
iwasasonishedaheindisincionofeveryhingwherehadsoodhegreagaes?whaboundedhecouryard?whereaboudidheouhousesmence?afewbricksonlyyasrepresenaivesofhawhichwassosaelyandsospacious
deahdoesnoshrinkuphishumanvicimahisraeheburnashesofamanweighmoreinheirproporion
hadiseenhesebrickandmorarknavesaheirprocessofdesrucion,ahepluckingofeverypa
elishouldhavefelhevarlesamyhearishouldhavecriedouohemospareapnkaleasouofhecheerfulsoreroom,inwhosehowindowseaiusedosiandreadcowley,wihhegrasspbefore,andhehumandfppingsofhaonesoliarywasphaeverhaunediaboume——iisinmineearsnow,asofassummerreurns;orapa
elofheyellowroom
why,everypnkandpa
elofhahouseformehadmagicini,heapesriedbedrooms——apesrysomuchbeerhanpaining——noadorningmerely,bupeoplinghewainsco——awhichchildhoodeverandanonwouldsealook,shifingiscoverlid(repcedasquickly)oexerciseisendercourageinamomenaryeyeencounerwihhosesernbrighvisages,saringreciprocally——allovidonhewalls,incoloursvividerhanhisdescripionsacaeoninmidsprou,wihheunappeasablepruderyofdiana,andhesillmoreprovoking,andalmosculinarycoolnessofdanphoebus,eelfashion,deliberaelydivesingofmarsyas
hen,hahaunedroom——inwhicholdmrsbaledied——whereinoihavecrep,bualwaysinhedayime,wihapassionoffear,andasneakingcuriosiy,errorained,oholdmunicaionwihhepas——howshallheybuildiupagain?
iwasnoolddeseredpce,yenosolongdeseredbuharacesofhesplendourofpasinmaeswereeverywhereapparenisfurniurewassillsanding——evenohearnishedgilleaherbaledores,andcrumblingfeahersofshulecocksinhenursery,whicholdhachildrenhadoncepyedherebuiwasalonelychild,andhadherangeawillofeveryaparmen,kneweverynookandcorner,wonderedandworshippedeverywhere
hesoliudeofchildhoodisnosomuchhemoherofhough,asiishefeederoflove,andsilence,andadmiraionsosrangeapassionforhepcepossessedmeinhoseyearsha,houghherey——ishameosayhowfewroodsdisancefromhemansion——halfhidbyrees,whaijudgedsomeromanicke,suchwashespellwhichboundmeohehouse,andsuchmycarefulnessnoopassissricandproperprecincs,haheidlewaersyunexploredforme,andnoilleinlife,curiosiyprevailingoverelderdevoion,ifound,omyasonishmen,apreybrawlingbrookhadbeenhecusincogniusofmyinfancyvariegaedviews,exensiveprospecs——andhoseanogreadisancefromhehouse——iwasoldofsuch——whawereheyome,beingouofheboundariesofmyeden?sofarfromawishoroam,iwouldhavedrawn,mehough,sillcloserhefencesofmychosenprison,andhavebeenhemmedinbyayesecurercincureofhoseexcludinggardenwallsicouldhaveexcimedwihhagardenlovingpoe——
bindme,yewoodbines,inyourwines,
curlmeabou,yegaddingvines,
andohsocloseyourcirclesce
haimayneverleavehispce
bu,lesyourfeersproveooweak,
ereiyoursilkenbondagebreak,
doyou,obrambleschainmeoo,
and,coureousbriars,nailmehrough!
iwashereasinalonelyemplesnugfiresides——lowbuilroofparloursenfeebyen——frugalboards,andallhehomelinessofhome——hesewerehecondiionofmybirh——hewholesomesoilwhichiwaspnedinye,wihouimpeachmenoheirendereslessons,iamnosorryohavehadgncesofsomehingbeyond;andohaveaken,ifbuapeep,inchildhood,aheconrasingaccidensofagreaforune
ohavehefeelingofgeniliy,iisnonecessaryohavebeenborngenleheprideofancesrymaybehadoncheaperermshanobeobligedoanimporunaeraceofancesors;andhecoalessaniquaryinhisunembzonedcell,revolvinghelonglineofamowbraysordecliffordspedigree,ahosesoundingnamesmaywarmhimselfinoasgayavaniyashosewhodoinherihemhecimsofbirhareidealmerely,andwhaheraldshallgoabouosripmeofanidea?isirenchanoheirswords?canibehackedoffasaspurcan?orornawaylikeaarnishedgarer?
wha,else,werehefamiliesofhegreaous?whapleasureshouldweakeinheirediousgenealogies,orheircapiuorybrassmonumens?whaousheuninerrupedcurrenofheirbloods,ifourowndidnoanswerwihinusoacognaeandcorrespondenelevaion?
orwherefore,else,oaeredanddiminishedscucheonhahunguponheimewornwallsofhyprincelysairs,bkesmoor!haveiinchildhoodsoofsoodporinguponhymysiccharacers——hyemblemaicsupporers,wihheirpropheic”resurgam”——ill,everydregofpeasanrypurgingoff,ireceivedinomyselfverygeniliy?houwerfirsinmymorningeyes;andofnighs,hasdeainedmysepsfrombedward,illiwasbuasepfromgazingaheeodreamingonhee
hisisheonlyruegenrybyadopion;heveriablechangeofblood,andno,asempiricshavefabled,byransfusion
whoiwasbydyinghahadearnedhesplendidrophy,iknowno,iinquiredno;buisfadingrags,andcolourscobwebsained,oldhaissubjecwasofwocenuriesback
andwhaifmyancesorahadaewassomedamoeasfeedingflocks,nohisown,uponhehillsoflincoln——didiinlessearnesvindicaeomyselfhefamilyrappingsofhisonceproudaegon?——repayingbyabackwardriumphheinsulshemighpossiblyhaveheapedinhislifeimeuponmypoorpasoralprogenior
ifiwerepresumpionsoospecue,hepresenownersofhemansionhadleasreasonopinheyhadlongforsakenheoldhouseofheirfahersforanewerrifle;andiwaslefoappropriaeomyselfwhaimagesicouldpickup,oraisemyfancy,orosoohevaniy
iwasheruedescendenofhoseoldw——s;andnohepresenfamilyofhaname,whohadfledheoldwasepces
minewashagalleryofgoodoldfamilyporrais,whichasihavegoneover,givingheminfancymyownfamilyname,one——andhenanoher——wouldseemosmile,reachingforwardfromhecanvas,orecognisehenewreionship;whilehereslookedgrave,asiseemed,ahevacancyinheirdwelling,andhoughsoffledposeriy
habeauywihhecoolbluepasoraldrapery,andamb——hahungneahegreabaywindow——wihhebrighyellowh——shirehair,andeyeofwachehue——solikemyalice!——iampersuadedshewasarueelia——mildredelia,iakei
mioo,bkesmoor,washynoblemarblehall,wihismosaicpavemens,andiswelvecaesars——saelybussinmarblerangedround:ofwhosecounenances,youngreaderoffacesasiwas,hefrowningbeauyofnero,iremember,hadmosofmywonderbuhemildgalbahadmylovehereheysoodinhecoldnessofdeah,yefreshnessofimmoraliy
mioo,hylofyjusicehall,wihisonechairofauhoriy,highbackedandwickered,onceheerroroflucklesspoacher,orselfforgefulmaiden——somonsince,habashaveroosedini
mioo——whoseelse?——hycoslyfruigarden,wihissunbakedsouhernwall;heamplerpleasuregarden,risingbackwardsfromhehouseinripleerraces,wihflowerposnowofpaleslead,savehaaspeckhereandhere,savedfromheelemens,bespakeheirprisinesaeohavebeengilandgliering;heverdanquarersbackwardersill;and,srechingsillbeyond,inoldformaliy,hyfirrywilderness,hehaunofhesquirrel,andhedaylongmurmuringwoodpigeon,wihhaaniqueimageinhecenre,godorgoddessiwisno;buchildofahensoroldromepaidneverasincererworshipopanorosylvanusinheirnaivegroves,haniohafragmenalmysery
wasiforhis,haikissedmychildishhandsoofervenlyinyouridolworship,walksandwindingsofbkesmoor!forhis,orwhasinofmine,hasheploughpassedoveryourpleasanpces?isomeimeshinkhaasmen,whenheydie,donodieall,soofheirexinguishedhabiaionsheremaybeahope——agermoberevivified
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